The wound I didn't know existed
很多人事物就像爱情一样, 未必能够察觉, 但只要有个种子, 会逐渐萌芽。还有另一种, 是你可能不以为意, 但早就在你的内心里划破成道伤口。
There are many relationships and experiences like love- you may not know their significance but so long as a seed was planted, it would sprout in you. There's another kind of significance- you think it doesn't matter but in actual fact it has been deeply etched with a wound.
有种成长, 不困难、不关键、不明显, 却很深刻。
There are some seemingly simple and unimportant points in growth that may not be obvious but are, in fact, really memorable.
Such depth of memory may be so deep down in you that you don't even know of its existence.
Crapping so much because I'm hesitant to admit what I'm feeling this moment.
事情其实很简单, 不就是义安来了两位Mass Comm的学妹, 希望我们能采访他们明年筹办的大型活动。
Juniors from another course came to request for media coverage.
Why didn't we have such an opportunity? Why couldn't our lecturers place such faith and responsibility in us?
我们实习的回忆莫过于被放逐的罪犯, 有权威的人能吆喝我们, 亦可在我们的背后道尽闲言闲语无不刺穿我们的心。
My internship felt like.. we were a bunch of criminals sent to exile. Those with authority made us puppets, they hurt us with their words like swords on our hearts.
Some people are lucky and they get the best chances in life- these are the juniors.
Some have the ambitious attitude but thy don't have the capabilities- they leave regrets.
What about us? The ones who have the capabilities were shot down in our attempts to soar- all we have left is regret and pain.
从不知道我的内心有这道再再划破我坚强外壳的伤口, 让悲伤不着边际地蔓延。那份痛楚就像被剑刺心后溅出的鲜血, 震撼人心, 沾染遍地, 难以磨灭。
I never knew that the internship did manage to corrode my strength and left me with endless sorrow. That sort of pain is like I've been stabbed in the heart, leaving the blood splatters that can never be removed thoroughly.
我能够正常的操作, 但是只要亲亲触碰那伤口, 一切的防备都化为乌有, 只有那要人命的难受。世界瓦解, 视觉模糊, 内心混乱。
I can live on because life goes on. But all it takes to break me down is the slightest touch of the wound. All my self-defence stances would reduce to nothing.. I lose sight of life and reality, and I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
The love we wanted was extremely simple. Why did the grown ups have to make use of us and cause us such intense pain?
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