29 January, 2013

Regrets are mistakes that memories make

这是我喜欢的英文歌曲《Someone Like You》中的歌词。

最近因为参加F.I.R.的演唱会,再次听到了这首歌。每次想起的,都是这段歌词。

但是今天才真正地明白它的意思。

有些时候,我们会后悔过去的某些决定——是否不应该分手?是否应该回头?是否应该挽留?

会后悔,只是因为不记得当初为何分手、为何掉头、为何让他走。

所以很多情侣分分合合,只因为太容易受伤,也太容易忘记。每次的重来,都在吵闹中想起当时为什么分开。分开后因为忘了吵闹的理由,所以觉得后悔。

没什么好后悔的。


That's the line from one of my favorite songs "Someone Like You".

I was reminded of the song because of the F.I.R. concert last weekend. And everytime it comes to my mind, it's always this line.

But it's only today that I truly understand what it meant.

Sometimes we look back at our lives and wonder - did we give up too fast? Did we leave too early? Should we look back then?

We have regrets, because our memories make the mistake of forgetting the reason that led to our decisions.

Some couples break up and patch up time and time again, because they get hurt too easily, and forget what caused their pain too quickly. Every time they start over and fight, they are reminded of why they broke up in the first place. The reason they felt regret was because they forgot why they fought in the first place.

There's nothing worth regretting.

28 January, 2013

钱 · Money

How much is enough?

Had a talk/tiff with a friend earlier tonight, because I think youths nowadays have overestimated the power of money. Some don't have the courage to pursue their dreams, so they say they "succumb" to reality, choose another industry, be unhappy and get a good pay.

But that doesn't give you the right to blame reality.

How much is enough?

How little is basic?

If you can still take one thing you have out of your life, and be able to survive, that means your life is above basic, above average.

One thing that I realised youths rambling about is that their pay isn't good enough for their life.

One less trip to Pizza Hut isn't your necessity. Instead of Gucci, maybe you can get something cheaper. Or even, use what you have and not shop that bit.

Not everyone is money-minded.

Honestly speaking, as a student, I used to think getting a job was going to solve everything. More money = better life, right?

WRONG.

Because that happiness is short-lived and superficial.

When you realize that money can get you so many things, you do feel happy and assured. Then you realise, money can ONLY get you these many things.

There are some things in life that you cannot equate with money.

Dream is one of them. Aspirations.

I understand some people really don't have the financial backing and other passes to pursue their dreams. But many don't give up, because their dream is more than the reality that they are taught.

That doesn't mean those people are wrong, or "haven't seen the light/reality".

It's precisely because they've seen the so-called reality, and decided that there's more to life than that frame of mind the world taught us.

21 January, 2013

有缘;无缘 · Fate

最近发生了两件事情。

(1)申请的工作没着落
(2)皮包不见

在求职方面,其实我不是特别急,但其实蛮向往在大环境里学习并且贡献的。之前有些挣扎,有些矛盾,但说到底,我真的很想继续学习、继续进步,也希望能和别人分享我所知道的,一起变得更好。

不过,也许是无缘吧?机会擦身而过,连面试的机会都没有。虽然有点惋惜,但是…… 总不能一直让自己的情绪处于谷底吧?

最近真的很努力,想要开心地面对每一天。


第二件事,今天早上和妈妈出门,到了大众书局才发现,我的皮包不见了。

奇妙的是…… 我没有以前的慌张、无助、彷徨,只是很努力地找。最后一次用皮包是前一天晚上,所以就重返NTUC询问。在家里找了很久,但心里一直有一种很奇怪的感觉。

总觉得……有什么不对劲。

就是那种,自己的潜意识明白,但是自己却完全记不得是几时犯的错。

后来,想要通过警察局的网站报失,但填了好久好久,递交表格的过程却频频故障。就在可以交表格的前一秒,接到哥哥的电话,说在总站找到了我的皮包。

恍然大悟。

最近不知道怎么了,发现自己好像一直处于失忆的状态。早上起来,再怎么努力也想不起前一晚的细节,甚至不记得和朋友的约定或谈话内容。

虽然生活没有太忙碌,不过觉得心里的压力和负担很大。

不过,挑战不是一种不幸,而是一种特权。是让你成长的特权,难得可贵的机会。

把握,也许就是面对。



Two things happened recently.

(1) No news from job application
(2) I lost my wallet

Regarding the first point.. I'm not particularly anxious or worried, but I really do want to find a larger scale workplace to learn. I did struggle a little and was a little hesitant before I came up with this conclusion, but ultimately, I want to keep learning, keep improving and hopefully be able to do good and contribute with what I know and learn.

However... it's probably not the right time. The chances came and left, but I didn't even get a call-up for interview. It's a pity but... I can't possibly let myself feel so depressed for a long time right?

Been trying really hard to live each day staying positive.


As of the second point... I was out with me momo and magua, but realized that my wallet was gone when me mo wanted to borrow my Popular membership card.

The strange thing was... I didn't panic or cry like I last did. It was just a lot of rummaging, and searching. The last time I used my wallet was the night before, so I returned to the NTUC I went to enquire about lost belonging. Then I went home to search more places more thoroughly.

I had the feeling, an instinct, that something wasn't right.

It's almost as if deep down I know how I lost it, but I simply couldn't recall where and when.

Much later on, I finally decided to submit a police report online, but somehow I had a lot of problems trying to fill in and submit the document. Just as things began to load, I received a phonecall from my brother to say that it has been found by the bus driver.

The truth dawned on me.

I've been feeling out of sort lately, like I'm experiencing partial memory loss. There are times when I wake up in the morning and totally cannot recall what I did the night before. I couldn't even remember what I discussed with my friends.

Life's not too busy, but I feel very burdened.

Let's just take it that challenges are an entitlement, but it's a privilege for you to grow.

Maybe facing the challenge is the way to cherish the chance.

16 January, 2013

When It Counts

There's a really nice short series by Wongfu Productions on Youtube, and I had a very strong feeling for the final dance scene, and decided to edit my own version.

Watch the show from here (4 episodes in total) -


- and then watch my finale dance edit!

2013 Updates

There is a lot I have yet to blog about! Been spending a lot of time on writing articles for YOLOsg, which I have to publish slowly over the time till February or so.

I had a big argument with me momo at the very beginning of the year, and I took off at night to find a place to spend some me-time. It was a place where I knew no one and no one knew me, and I could enjoy the breeze, and watch the world go by.

Looking up, it was like a painting by the nature.

But let's be realistic here - with the trees above, ants landed on me with every gust of wind. It was too dark to see, but I could FEEL them. 

Although the isolation trip was because of some unhappiness, it was like I stumbled into a well of reflection, and found more happiness within myself. (:

Then things started to get better. 

Before that, on another random occasion, I discovered how some women rest their legs while sitting down, to take a break from wearing heels. Awesome.


That was some VIP's leg by the way. XD

And I found a new vegetarian place at Kovan selling my favorite mini dumplings. But more about that later, in a separate review. :D


Met up with Angeline at the start of the year for our trip to Haw Par Villa too. It was part of my resolutions to travel to unknown places, and take a break from shopping malls. More photos of the trip HERE

And the reason the photos are up on Facebook is because Flickr screwed up, and is starting to delete older photos as soon as I upload new ones, keeping the quota at 200, which is ridiculous, because who on earth takes THAT little photo their whole lifetime? 

So I would be uploading to Facebook from now. Not to mention how pissed I am, that the photos I once collected on Flickr are now all gone. Flickr may you go down with MSN Messenger. >=[

So after the trip to Haw Par Villa, we took the circle line train service to Bras Basah, supposedly to eat the best red velvet cake. Turns out, they've moved, to Mustafah. =((( 

But it was nice to be back on the street, and see the oh-so-familiar 15 Queen Street sign once again. ;')


The trip back also made me realise that Midlink Plaza has been demolished! 
Oh that poor Japanese food place.


And the lighting at Ramen Champion is awesome! Angeline decided to revisit that place, because she couldn't have my shoyu ramen previously, as she was a bunny recovering without her wisdom teeth.

But seriously, their $11 portion is too HUGE, for even two people.

-techno music- "I'm texting and I know it." -techno music-

One night when I felt down, I started tracing and coloring pikachu and pichus. 


Then a few days later, I went back to Bras Basah, this time for an article feature interview, as well as to drop by Munkysuperstar to pass them some goodies! :D Had the chance to catch up with the dearies, and even eat Cherie's cake again! #CaloriesButThatsOkay


Cherie was saying that the slice of cake doesn't look pretty, and that I should just use her photo of the complete cake from Twitter. But I told her that this is philosophical!

Never judge a person by his appearance, just like how you shouldn't judge this cake. 
It looks messy, but this cake is awesome. 


:D

And it's nice to see the view from the lift lobby at Wilby Central again. :'))


On another random occasion, I saw a face on the toilet door lock. 

There's this blog I love called Faceinplaces and it made me realise that I'm not the only one who notices such things!


Met up with 74 gang last Friday too!

Come to think of it, we couldn't even remember the last time we all met up altogether. Super guilty.

Huiting waited at Nebo from 6pm+, I arrived second, Poh arrived at around 7pm, and Shiqi... Well, let's just say the whole world waited for her grand appearance. XD By then, Huiting and I were happily munching on potato wedges.


It's been a while since I took ninja shots. Below, left, is Shiqi ordering food at the counter. We were saying that the waitress looks just like her. They look like mirrored version of each other. And then on the right, Huiting at NTUC. 

We became so auntie!!! We used to go hip places, like Bishan and Orchard, but nowadays when we meet up, it's usually NTUC, S21 kopitiam and... NTUC!!! >_<||


We usually end our night very late, finale being a H2H chat at McDonalds. We barely had the stamina that day!!! But we persisted...


Let's just say the fries wasn't worth the persistence. McDonalds standard very horrigible nowadays. 

But I was still evil enough to send a close-up photo of the fries to Shiqi, who left early to mug.


I'm not sorry if you're reading this in the middle of the night, and feeling hungry because of the photo. #YDI for not letting your body rest early. XD

On another occasion, I saw a fatty cat! Even cats in my neighbourhood are suffering from globesity.


An auntie even went to pet her stomach to see if she's pregnant, or if she's just fat.

Don't you wish we could do that on the train too???

To decide if we need to give up our seat... 

Just kidding!!!! ~_~||

I spent last Sunday evening tidying my house, only to have it messed up by today, thanks to Momo and Kimjioon. T_T 

Anyway, we had a problem of having too many shoes, and I came up with the following design, using different carton boxes to form racks, and sort shoes by how often they are worn! 


Left shoe rack: Often worn shoes
Right smallest box on top: Slippers & sandals
Red box: Lesser worn new shoes
Bottom box that's covered: Old shoes that shouldn't be disposed yet, but unglam to see.

Because of the space limitations, I've long started to keep my own shoes in my room under my bed. And I was thinking of how to keep them away from bugs, because imagine one day when I take a pair, slip them on and feel something being squashed inside. 

Like, OMG, NO WAY. 

Then, just as I was wondering, I found the following new product in Valu$ shop!!!!

Super lucky lately.


Problem solved! And it only cost $2.95.

Another thing that also happened was that I finally got around to repurchase my PSLE result slip because Momo disposed it years ago, purely by accident.

So turns out, I finally found out my results. LOL.


Now I can also call myself a straight-A student! 
No one's gonna know I'm referring to PSLE results. HAHAHAHA

Oh! And there's this random lady I saw on TV who reminded me of THE NEEDY GIRLFRIEND.


But she's very goofy in the show. XD

Ending this post with a very vogue photo of my neighbourhood cat!



08 January, 2013

做自己 · Be Yourself

生活记录:最近不知不觉又开始忙碌起来,东西开始变得做不完。充实得失眠!
Update: Life is picking up pace these days and I'm going to sleep knowing there's more left tomorrow to complete, resulting in... INSOMNIA!


我一直都十分抗拒面簿的,总觉得君子之交淡如水,实在不想太具体地了解朋友的私生活,尤其是相识的陌生人。

为了我的网站,已经在面簿上浮浮沉沉半年多了,有时真的觉得很头疼。不过,也让我明白做自己的重要。

看到一些朋友做一些不适合他们的事情,我不知道他们感觉怎样,只是我无意间看到就不禁为朋友感到……不自在。

就像我不适合装娃娃音、扮嗲一样,有些时候,真的没有必要做一些不适合自己的事,那叫原则和风格吧。

小时候必须从别人身上学习,长大之后必须从内观测自己内心所向。

I've been really reluctant to use Facebook, because I wish to know my friends for who I meet in real life, and not how they are in their personal lives.

For the sake of my website, I had been spending some time on Facebook, and I often feel like my head would crack at any moment. But the exposure also taught me the important of self-identity.

I find it cringe-worthy to see friends doing things that they are not comfortable with and/or are not suitable for.

Just like how I should never act cute and talk bimbo-ish, I think there's really no need for people to try too hard to be someone else that they are not. That's because it isn't their style nor element.

Since young, we've been taught to learn from others, but in adulthood I think it's more important to understand yourself and BE yourself.

04 January, 2013

Kimjioon


其实根本想不起2010年出国读书读书前的心情,唯一记得的就是担心家人是否能够好好相处,好好照顾自己,尤其是爸爸妈妈。

这个月尾,轮到二哥出国读书半年了,心里有种……不舍。

虽然我们常常吵架,互亏,但说到底,我们都算挺疼惜彼此的,大哥也是。

难免会想念他的混乱、少根筋、无聊、挑衅、贴心等吧。还有,那超会gng的个性。哈哈哈。

=')


I can't remember how it felt before going to study overseas. The only thing I remember worrying about was whether my family would be able to get along, and take care of themselves, especially my parents.

It would be my elder brother's turn to go overseas this end-January and I can't help but feel abit... sad.

Although we fight and argue a lot, I think we still cherish each other more. 

Can't help but think that I'd even miss his lameless, fights, provoking, niceness and all. 

=')

01 January, 2013

新年新展望 · New Year Resolutions

上一篇因为篇幅实在太长了,所以没有翻译。
The last blog entry was too lengthy to be translated~

新的一年的第一天, 其实并没有太多的感触。因为以前都是在1月1日担心/期待开学/开工,但今年却是……平静。
Today's the first day of a new year, but I'm not feeling too much of a difference. It used to be worrying about first day of school/semester/work, but... nothing much this time this year.

只希望现在的沉静,是为了酝酿来临的发挥。
All I wish is that the current peace is a break before a better chapter.

1月,有好几件重要的事情——爸爸生日、爷爷忌日、二哥出国、考试成绩放榜。
A couple of important things would be taking place in January - celebrating my dad's birthday, prayers for my grandfather's 11th death anniversary, elder brother leaving for Holland, and the release of my results.

2013年,有3场婚礼——大哥的婚礼、好同事的婚礼、表哥的婚礼。
There would also be three weddings this year, namely my eldest brother's, Cherie's and my cousin's.

想在今年的第一天,整理好思绪,为新的一年、新的篇章,好好努力干一番。
Wish to start the year on a good note, and make all my new year resolutions today, in preparation of a new chapter ahead.

新展望目标:

(1)尝试5样自己害怕的事情/活动
其实这是从《公主日记》系列得到的灵感,女主角为了忘记过去,重新开始认识生命,每天尝试一件会让自己害怕的事。我现在在考虑的包括溜冰、试吃面逻等。

(2)一年内在YOLOsg刊登至少120篇报导,采访至少5个活动

(3)看10部电影

我最喜欢的舞台剧集团似乎有点变质了,所以暂时不考虑他们任何的演出。今年,想多看一些时下火红的新电影。

(4)保持单身
宁缺勿滥,维续独立

(5)瘦8公斤
健康最重要。

(6)维持健康,不看医生
去年看了三次医生、坐过轮椅、上过救伤车、躺在床上无法行走。今年希望自己可以活得充实之余,多照顾自己的健康。另一个重点是……欧巴桑心态作祟,希望可以省下医药费啦,哈哈哈。

(7)开个户口,储蓄至少$3600

(8)有所成就——有所作品、肯定证明

(9)每天运动

15分钟也好,30分钟也罢,希望自己能够持之以恒。2012年的堕落,2013年重新站起来。

(10)翻新家里的某个地方——厕所/垃圾槽/厨房/客厅/小阳台




New Year Resolutions 2013:

(1) Try 5 things that scare me
I was inspired by the Princess Diaries series, in which the female lead tries something that scares her everyday in order to restart her life after losing her first love. Things I'm considering now include ice-skating and trying mee siam.

(2) Cover at least 5 events for YOLOsg, and publish at least 120 articles

(3) Watch 10 movies

The drama theatre company I used to love seems to have changed, and I'm not a big fan of their new commercialized direction. So this year I'm gonna focus on watching new movies that are launching in theatres.


(4) Stay single
I'd rather have none, and remain independent

(5) Lose 8kgs
Stepping up the game for keeping healthy.

(6) Stay healthy, not having to go to the doctor
In the past year, I've been to the doctor thrice, been on a wheelchair and ambulance, even lying on the bed totally unable to stand nor move. For this coming year, I wish to take better care of myself... also to save the medical fees. Hahaha.

(7) Start a new bank account, save up at least $3600

(8) Somewhat successful - with some form of prove or work

(9) Exercise everyday
Be it 15 minutes or 30 minutes. Hopefully I'd be able to persist, and put things right this year.

(10) Renovate some part(s) of the house - toilet/chute/kitchen/living room/balcony



就这样~
So that's it!

明年的今天,希望目标都能达成!
Hopefully I'd have accomplished them this time next year!