29 April, 2013

人生就像一场戏

 

人生就像一场戏。每个人扮演者不同的角色,为自己的梦想和目的努力前进。

很多时候我们以为我们无可取代,但其实我们就像演员,随时有人能够取而代之。

人生的价值到底是什么?什么时候才能放弃梦想?

Life is like a show. Each of us play a different role and give our all for what we believe is worthwhile.

So often we assume that we are one of a kind, when in fact any of our role can be easily replaced.

What's the value of life? When is giving up a dream justifiable?

28 April, 2013

数字会说话 · Numeric Talk

曾经有人那么告诉过我——数字不是一切。

这个道理很多人都懂。选择交往的异性,即使他在数字条件方面能满足你,但没有眼缘/感觉,就是无法成就一段感情。在选择学校方面,平方米最大、设备最多、学费最贵的,未必就适合自己。

但是…… 最近YOLOsg.com的数字有了起色,不知不觉中,开始对数字执着。

我告诉自己,数字不是一切,但数字会说话。当有一天数字对我不再有任何意义,或许就是我成功了。

到时候再回头看现在,此刻的百数,比成功后的多位数,更有价值和意义。

无论你是谁,只要曾经陪我走过,都非常谢谢。


Someone once told me that numbers isn't everything.

Many people understand what that means. The guy who has the best financial capabilities and assets still isn't The One if you don't have feelings for him. The school that has the best results, facilities, and is most costly, may not necessarily be the best school for you.

But... I've been a little obsessed with numbers of YOLOsg.com lately. It's an obsession that crept upon me unknowingly.

I constantly remind myself that numbers isn't everything (cos some content is worth featuring) but I know that it speaks of the direction I'm heading. The day when numbers no longer speaks to me, is the day I know I've succeeded.

Looking back at this present moment years later, THIS hundreds would surpass in value to the numerical values in the future.

No matter who you are, thank you for being with me, and witnessing this journey.

26 April, 2013

心理测验

除了摄影和手工外,心理学是我最大的休闲爱好。在网络进行心理测验,总能够让自己更加了解此时此刻的心境,能够客观应对自己的情绪和难题。

在理工学院时期,有人介绍了《精神年龄鉴定》测验,忘了当时的我几岁,但今天再做,以下是我的精神年龄报告……


自己好像一直都是40岁以上。=/

有一件事情是最近想说的。我从……去年12月开始求职找工作,刚开始的失败(或者说,毫无消息的情况)让我很沮丧。期间,对于找工作这件事情,我一直挺纠结的。

但事到如今,其实已经有点习惯履历表寄出去,一直都没有消息,反正都没有消息的失败。可以说是有点麻木了吧。

期待—〉失落—〉沮丧—〉无助—〉麻木

说实话,我真的不知道自己做错了什么。发电邮什么的都很有礼貌,很详细,也没有不好的污点。但就是得不到任何的回应。很希望自己还有一点力气去思考,现在的自己是忧郁?彷徨?迷茫?无奈?

但似乎一点情绪都找不到。

就像面对一位卧病在床的病人,当他已经断气,已经没有了心跳,又谈何痛苦和解脱?

至少这就是我现在的感觉。

有些时候,我有点客套、有点敷衍、有点虚假,但面对这类的事情,我完全没有必要“装”。

烦,因为有的家人一直唠叨,问题是我不是没去努力找,但就像碰不到如意郎君一样,努力没有回报,不如闭嘴不要在责怪?在我也想有份工作的时候,你的唠叨不能改变什么,但你内心的抱怨和顾虑,我一清二楚。

每天醒来就担心网站的点击率,接下来要安排的内容、活动、记者会、设计,做得开心,但真的不希望外人来打扰、来插一脚、来凑热闹。我不需要什么“拯救”,因为现阶段我执著的不是“成果”,而是“摸索”。

因为星座是狮子座也好、因为自己自尊心强也罢,我坦言,除非我认为你有过人的实力,否则我会认为,你没有资格批评我。更谈不上什么拯救。

好了。抱怨够了。以下是最近做的另一项测验结果——


At this particular time you are feeling the results of extreme stress and you are seeking a 'way out' but you are pushing too hard. Obviously you need peace, tranquillity and contentment. Your temperament is such that you are hoping, unrealistically perhaps, that your desires will shortly be fulfilled (even if at this time you are not quite sure what those true aspirations may be!).

You are finding the present situation extremely demanding and you're having difficulty coping with it. A great deal of strain is involved and you would really like everyone and everything to leave you alone for a while, just so that you can put everything into perspective.

Circumstances are holding you back, forcing you to back off and to forgo all the pleasures, fun and games for the time being. But this is only a temporary situation and before you even know it the situation could change.

Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature - perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop into suspicion and distrust.

You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavours and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.

22 April, 2013

Stop the GLBT nonsense

I just need to rant a little.

ENOUGH OF THE GAY/LESBIAN COMMENTS, 
CYBER PEOPLE.

It's in human nature to stereotype people. We judge people base on their skin color, accent, language, personality, nationality, whatever. It's not right, but it's only natural.

But sometimes I feel like... The gay and lesbian comments online are getting out of hand.

Sure, sometimes I see a girl with really short haircut and my first thought is "is she a butch?"

Sometimes we see guys acting really girly and wonder "woah he's damn gay".

But it's a whole new level of offensiveness, when frickin' annoying people keep leaving comments EVERYWHERE, harping on the whole gay/lesbian stereotype.

You know when it's okay to want to find out?

When you are straight, and you want to know if that someone is available.

Other than that, LEAVE THEM ALONE.

Why am I so worked up today?

I had been watching a YouTuber by the name of Joey Graceffa, and out of the few videos I watched, I scroll down and see all the IS HE GAY? and GAY comments.



WHAT DO YOU WANT?!?!

So what if he is? So what if he isn't? Unless you want to date him, SHUT UP.

Why do immature people online think it's okay to target these people? What wrong have they done?

There are YouTube channels out there that I dislike and/or don't agree with. So all you have to do, is NOT WATCH THEM. How hard can that be?

Instead, you waste your miserable life going to EVERY of their videos, to leave the word GAY. Who is the one with a problem here?

Gay, is a status. It's not some insulting label you put on someone.

Do you go around and leave YouTube comments, asking ARE YOU MALE? ARE YOU FEMALE? ARE YOU AMERICAN? AMERICAN. SINGAPOREAN. MALAYSIAN. ATTACHED. SINGLE. MARRIED.

No, right? So what's with the gay and lesbian comments?

Sometimes it hasn't even got anything to do with the video. You watch a video, overlook the content, overlook the effort, and all you got to say is GAY? What are you doing online? You don't deserve access to the cyber world.


A person can pull of a certain role, that's talent. You don't have to say such disrespectful stuff, be it fact or rumor.

Looking through YouTube comments can bring such doubts about humanity sometimes. On a random cat video, people are fighting about religion. On Psy's music video, people are fighting about countries, cultures and beliefs. So many people don't understand that their "just for fun" trolling and annoying persistence can actually crush someone else. And that person didn't even offend YOU.

People are always talking about bullying, but I think comments online brings out the WORST in bullies.

Suddenly it feels like we're going backwards in this society. Traditional media is the way it is, to filter out such biased and extremists spamming. Cyberspace liberated such limits. But sometimes what's best is being limited. So... Is this society improving, or going backwards?

17 April, 2013

Random Facts from How It's Made


Browsing YouTube can be so scary sometimes. There's this super weird side of it, and then there's the super CUTE side of it, which turns out to be extremely addictive.

So for me, there are basically three pits that I find myself falling into - The Ellen Show, viral videos and How It's Made.

And today happens to be the day of How It's Made. But at least it was a fruitful waste of time!

Here are some random facts I learnt today -

1. Miniature Silvers are most commonly scaled 1:12 (video)


2. Erasers can erase not because of rubber, but because of its oil content (video)


3. Glass Paperweights are shaped many times, kinda like the complex version of the rock candy (video)


4. Learning where the various chunks of meat are, on the chicken. (video)
And that they have to sharpen their knives after cutting every 5 chickens or so.


5. Different colours of flake fish food stand for different nutrients/chemical content (video)


6. Quality checks for mayonnaise include a pH test, turning it purple (video)
And that spice is actually added to make mayo. And that spice, is the trade secret.


7. Olive oil comes in green bottle specifically to filter out harmful UV affecting its quality (video)


8. Newman-O's sandwich cookies comes in 3 rows of eleven cookies per pack (video)
And girls scout cookies make millions of dollars annually.


9. Jellybeans are made with chewy core formed in starch and layered with coats of sugar (video)


10. Pre-cut cheesecake comes in 14 slices (video)


11. Thai chilli sauce - contains vinegar and a lot a LOT of sugar (video)


12. Soft drinks contain 6% filtered water, the rest is sugar, coloring and flavor (video)


13. Parmesan cheese is made by hand, literally, without gloves (video)
And they are made solely in Italian for the authenticity.


14. Stickers are made by combining colours with different negatives prints (video


15. Coffee beans are not BLACK naturally. Expresso is made with compressed powder (video)
For every 100 fruit they harvest, they try to pick no more than 2 green ones.


16. It takes about 50 hours to weave a wig by hand (video)


17. Glue is added to cushion the lead to prevent breakage (video)



I find it fascinating to watch things in mass production! =D

16 April, 2013

做贼心虚

有个认识多年的朋友,常常问我是不是生他的气。


如果很多人问,也许是我天生屎面(臭脸),但只有这个人所以……

最近有点忍无可忍。


知道为什么吗?


因为…… 我知道这个人刀法很厉害。专长叫做《在别人后面插一刀》。

我不笨,因为被插了很多刀,我都知道。


其实……

你去向我周围的人打听我是否生你的气,不是因为你在乎、不是因为有误会。

是因为你说了我的坏话,看到我都心虚。

我不需要脸黑黑,你就心虚得足以怀疑我发现了。


每次你问这个问题,只是让我知道,你又在我的背后说了我的坏话。

仅此而已。


**********

I have a friend who often asks if I'm angry with him.


If many people ask me the same question, it's probably because I'm born with a black face. But the fact that it's just him?

Let's just say I'm reaching my tolerance limit.


Want to know why?

Because I know this person excels in knife work. More specifically, back stabbing.

I'm not stupid, and I know when you backstabbed me.


In fact....

When you go around asking my friends if I'm angry with you, it doesn't show that you care, or if there's any misunderstanding between us.

It just goes to show that you feel guilty for the dirty things you say behind my back.

I don't need to give you a black face. Seeing me is enough to set off your own alarm.


So every time when you ask me this question, all it means to me is that you've backstabbed me again, pal.

That's about it.

14 April, 2013

可爱颂 + 我的DIY相册Gwiyomi + My Art Gallery

之前好像说过,该死的Flickr在无任何预警的情况下,把我上载的相册统统都删除了。但事情真正的严重性,我是前天才发现。

在把所有手工作品上载到Facebook的时候,才发现以前写的《番茄出游记》照片也统统被删掉了。所以说,有些博文,失去了照片。真的有点……杜烂。

但在几天的整理后,总算上载所有DIY、随手绘画等作品都上载齐全了!如果你有空,不妨上这个网站游览,说不定会有所启发!


韩国PSY大叔最新作品Gentleman又风靡全世界,两天内点看率破2200万。但在那之前,韩国也吹起Gwiyomi风潮,中国人俗称《可爱颂》。歌词意思平平无奇,但是当中有1—6的可爱动作,让本地很多人模仿,包括《新兵正传》的Tosh和Ridhwan。


另外让我捧腹大笑的,是clicknetwork.tv/NowYouKnow的主持人Don Richmond!


真的和开心+荣幸,在上届大选后的机缘巧合下,有机会认识这位才子。

以前刚开始在click工作的时候,星期四早上他都会很诡异地走进摄影棚,跟我打招呼。每次都觉得他有点可怕,又蛮好笑的。

后来还闹了一些笑话…… 加上他生日被我骗到…… 哈哈哈~ 总之就是很开心能够认识他!人超好的!有空就支持他的节目!!


08 April, 2013

Random Entry

有些时候我也搞不清楚—— 是因为心情好所以办事效率高,还是因为办事效率高所以心情好?

总之,今天做了很多事情。


有人提醒我一件很重要事—— 不要一直追求自己未能拥有的。因为以自己所拥有的,我们都仍未发挥到极致,为何浪费时间想要拥有其他的东西?不如把时间花在珍惜、花在发挥。

06 April, 2013

心无挂碍,无挂碍故

上个月的某一天,我们一家四人出席了大伯女儿出嫁的敬茶仪式。

因为上一代的一些事情,我们和亲戚在十多年间都疏远了。或许上一代有些恩怨,有些误解,或许当时很气、很委屈,但忽然发现——又怎样?

如果我们无法找到疏远的理智理由,是否就应该放下过去,重头再来呢?

以前不觉得传统婚礼很重要,今年才真正明白了其中的意义。


敬茶,不仅是传统,也是修复关系的平台和机会。如果我们仍然选择脱节,或许才是真正的不理智。因为那么想,所以当天早上出席了,为的是重修旧好,献上祝福。真心的祝福。


说实话…… 怀恨也是一天,感恩也是一天,何必用过去的恩怨,不分昼夜地折磨自己呢?如果没有什么杀父之仇,是否就应该好好相处,好好珍惜彼此,而不是等到失去了,才来后悔、惋惜?

十年的空白,换来了新一代的甘露。


我们说政府怎么跟不上我们的蜕变,我们说学校跟不上学生渴望的自由,但我们自己是否也常常跟不上时间的节拍?大家都在往前跑,是否想过,落在后头的、失去的,究竟是什么?


很多东西是可以弥补、取代的。

耳机坏了,可以买新的。手机弄丢了,也能取代。工作没了,再找就有了。

但这些叔叔、伯伯、姑姑,没有的时候,就是没有了。再也不可能取代,也不可能重来。珍惜,不是活在过去,而是握紧当下所拥有的。


《心经》中曰:心无挂碍,无挂碍故。

放下了心中的,才能包容脑袋的,重新接受眼前的。

05 April, 2013

我们都是幸福的 · We're all loved

之前一直很想po以下的照片,但好像一直忘记。

转眼间发现,从理工学院毕业已经是两年前的事了。我这一生中做了很多让自己后悔的决定,唯独报读中文系,是我这一生中最对、最开心、最光荣的抉择。


无论是导师还是同学,在毕业之后也没有远离彼此。偶尔的嘘寒问暖、鼓励、见面…… 都让人觉得很窝心。

今晚较早前跟心园、若琳和层次感巫婆去看舞台剧《她门》,期间才发现原来自己身边有那么多好朋友。有这群舞台剧好友、74 Gang、还有MSP家族…… 真的很幸运 + 幸福。

其实以前很介意很多事情,对朋友也有很苛刻的要求。但渐渐长大后发现,硬性的要求是无法挽留软性的真挚的。如果是好友,久逢知己也能畅谈且不尴尬。如果不是好友,常常见面也永远都是陌生人。

所以啊,严于律己无妨,但严于律人则应减少,让大家都有彼此呼吸的空间。


还有另外一件事是我很龟毛很介意的——就是为什么Gmail不让我用underscore _。因为我的电邮和账户统统都是huiying_233,只有Gmail让我破例,很不喜欢。所以就去网上搜索,为什么谷歌有那么讨人厌的限制!没想到有那么搞笑的答案——


前几天无聊,又拿龟龟开玩笑。

姐姐婚礼上送的小礼物。


昨天跟妈妈出门,回家路途中看到这对可爱的爷爷和孙女。爷爷一直用树枝一样的东西撮草丛,小妹妹就好奇地看着。两人翘屁屁的模样,温馨又可爱。


很多东西我希望拥有,或许现在得不到,但以后赚钱了,肯定能满足。例如看舞台剧买得起最贵最好的席位、购买剪辑软件、好的摄影灯光、好的摄影镜头……

但是有些东西,我永远都得不到。而以上温馨的画面,就是我这一辈子的奢望。回不去的过去,等不到的未来。


最近有机会出去走走,才真的有闲情欣赏本地的天空。


本地的天空有什么大不了?

对。没什么大不了。

但是本地的天空,在本地才看得到。平凡的天空,在亲切的国土才能看得到。外国的天空再美,也只是一幅不属于我的画。

最近最大的感悟莫过于此——最值得珍惜的平凡,莫过于周围默默守护关注的朋友、呵护包容我们的亲人以及风雨不改陪伴我们成长的大自然。

我们都是幸福的。

01 April, 2013

Cherie's Wedding

When I was young, my mum would ask me, if I want a younger sister for company. I remember answering once, that I'd wish I have an elder sister, but that's too much and impossible to ask for. 

I wish I had an elder sister to teach me stuff, and share some common girly H2H sessions with me. 

But if my sister is taller, prettier, smarter... or a complete brat, I'd be in living hell too, I guess. It's just that what we don't have often seem so attractive an option. 

Two years ago, I officially joined the working force, and crossed path with a new family at Munkysuperstar. Gillian, Cherie, Tre and Gladys. My memory is horrible, so as soon as I left the place, I quickly recorded their names in my phone. I got three of their names correct, and I got Cherie's name wrong as Sherry. They made huge differences in my life and today's the big day for this big sister whose name I first spelt wrong.

I'm not going to post up any photo of her, because she requested for privacy.


MSP has always been a family as a part of my life. A big part. Even though after all these times when I couldn't integrate into their culture and couldn't catch up with their capabilities, they are the A team I always love. Everytime I look at them... I'm overwhelmed with so much emotions deep within. 

The feeling of what a family is all about.

There are many things I choose not to do, say or try, but I'm often willing to take that step forward because of them and their encouragement. However tiring it may be, I know they are worth however much effort I have to put in. Because deep down I know that even if I feel awful for some little things, they never ever had the real intention to hurt me.


I don't know how else you can describe gratitude. 

I'm always inferior to them but... I can't help but care about this family. Especially tonight's wedding celebrations at Botanic Gardens. It almost feels as if I'm watching my big sister grow and find true love and anchor in her life. My real big sister. The sister I've so often wished for.

Seeing all these dearies I've worked with in the past gave me a warm fuzzy feeling, making me almost vulnerable enough to fear losing them someday. 

Gillian who doesn't put on airs, an obviously-smarter-but-still-calls-me-shifu Daniel, a sweet and easily-shocked Suzie, joker Stephanie, and my first production creation talent Shu An.  

Being able to sit down and enjoy a meal with these people... what more can I ask for? 

Full of gratitude.


I'm the kind of person who has so much pride, that I would NEVER cry in front of others. But these people made me so overwhelmed that I almost cried. Deep down, the warm fuzzy feeling never did die down.

As much as I love taking photos, today was also the first time that I truly felt the need to feel every moment, instead of capturing them. It meant so much more to be able to watch them chat, laugh and have a meal together. 

Even if I can never be part of their worlds, I am more than satisfied. And grateful, that I was lucky enough for our paths to cross.


A really emotional night.

I couldn't help but give them a hug or more, because I fear that someday we would distant, and all I have left would be these memories.

At this point in my life, I'm really REALLY grateful that they still consider me a friend.

Thank you for sharing the passion, the joy, and making me feel like... I'm part of the family.

姐姐出嫁了

小时候妈妈常问我,是否希望她生多一个妹妹给我。记得有一次我回答,说是希望能有个姐姐,但已经不可能改变。

如果有个姐姐教我东西,跟我有共同话题,那该多好。

但如果姐姐比我高、比我聪明、比我漂亮……或是超级恶劣,也有让人头疼的坏处吧。只是没有的,往往有种渴望。

两年前正式投入工作行列,有幸认识Munkysuperstar的职员——老板、Cherie、Tre、Gladys。我的记性很烂,所以走出公司后,就急忙拿出手机,把他们的名字记下。三人的拼音我都猜对了,只有Cherie的,我写成Sherry。后来……这四个人对我的人生有很大的改变。

因为新娘要求,所以我没有登任何她的照片。


MSP对我而言是个家庭。是文化上我无法融入、生活习惯上我无法融入、工作能力又远远把我抛在后的工作A团队。但是每次看到他们…… 心里都有个揪揪的感觉。家人的感觉。

很多我不愿意做、不愿意说、不愿意尝试的东西,我都愿意为她们迈出那一步。因为我知道她们绝对值得我那么拼命。因为我知道,无论多受伤、多辛苦,她们绝对没有恶意。


我不知道感恩还有什么方式可以形容、可以描述。

虽然我永远比不上她们,但是…… 我真的很在乎。今天到植物园参加姐姐的婚礼晚宴,心里也特别有感受,仿佛今天交入别人手里的,真的是我的亲姐姐。

看着曾经合作过的大伙儿…… 其实心里真的很暖和,也很怕失去她们。没有架子的老板、明明比我强还称我“师父”的男生、亲切懵懂的剪辑姐姐、爱开玩笑的行政潮人、还有我第一次制作节目的艺人。

能齐聚一堂,共享晚餐,我还能奢望什么?除了满足,就是感恩。


我自认是爱面子爱到死的人,死都不肯在别人面前脆弱。但是这群人能让我那么感动,让我差点落泪,让我内心的起伏迟迟无能平复。

平时喜欢拍照的自己,竟然第一次不想拿出相机捕捉每一刻,而是静静地看着这些我喜欢的人,开心地吃饭、说笑。就算是永远走不进她们的世界的旁观者,我也已满足至极。


今晚真的很感动。

一位位抱过了,因为害怕今后疏离,这一切都只剩回忆。

这一刻,因为她们还愿意跟我做朋友,我真的就很满足、很满足了。