Today has been a very trying day. In some sense, I woke on the wrong side of the bed.
Usually... I think I know what upsets me. One thing I'm certain I don't get calculative about is food. But when I do, I know it's a trying day for me. Probably not a good day, and bad enough that I actually care about food.
There's a lot to do, but I don't want to deal with it. Let them stay in my inbox. If they do matter, I'll get around to working on them in a while. If they don't, well... I just need a break from all these to settle down.
There's always something I can rely on to express how I feel - Goldin Universe Test.
On days and at times like these when I'm truly incredibly annoyed and frustrated... It's frickin easy to get pissed off. And when someone sets his/her heart to annoy me... I'll do the same.
It's said that guys and girls confide for different reasons. Guys confide for solutions, girls confide for relief. 95% of the time when I admit what's bothering me, I don't need someone to tell me that whatever's bothering me doesn't actually matter.
That's something our lecturer told us is more important than communication, yet so many people don't understand.
I mean... When I'm on fire and cussing in pain, you should try and lend a helping hand, instead of pin-pointing that hey you know it isn't right to curse right? It's not acceptable to me.
Let me just say that... I don't like cussing, and I only do when I really need to get some negativity out of my system. Which is pretty much frequently lately. But I think that's okay.
What's not okay about cussing is when youths and adults use it excessively. Like mixing CB and F in random daily conversations for no apparent reason. So in a sense... I think my principles do make sense.
Really upset today because.. I've reached a point where I don't even want to bother what you think or feel anymore, because I can't even wrap my head around my own problems. If you can't spare some attention for me, why should I care about your feelings?
I don't want to have to put on a false front.