29 May, 2014

What would you do when someone challenges your belief?

What if one day, someone tells you that the grapes that you know aren't actually grapes?

I face such a dilemma these days and have a little bit of problem making peace with myself about it.

You see, I started using DSLR about two years ago. I had the 18-55mm kit lens (aka basic), and I went on to buy 55-250mm zoom lens (aka can zoom further).

It was all working great, until someday when I felt that it's time to utilize the video function of my DSLR. So the two lens mentioned aren't good for video because they make a lot of noise when zooming in and out.

After extensive research, comparison and filter based on my budget, I set my eyes on the USM 28-135mm.

Of course it felt different. The first 10 minutes when I first got it from the seller, I forgot to cross the road, busy testing it out and being fascinated (more like overwhelmed) by its built and quality.

Can take close up, can zoom, and records video without noises - it's the best gift ever.

Since then, my 55-250mm has taken a backseat, and only used when I have to zoom really far. That's when it all crashed one day.

I started to notice a drop in quality of my DSLR footage.

"Maybe I've lost touch with using DSLR for a while. Need to practise more."

"The lighting was probably worse than I thought!"

"There is something wrong with my camera focus...?"

Of all the thoughts that crossed my mind, there was one hinting to me that perhaps... just perhaps... 28-135mm isn't That Kind Of Perfect.

I've been keeping my DSLR close to me these days to test and compare every now and then. And then I see the problem - despite having a higher F-stop, it doesnt focus anywhere as well in the night as compared to my "cheapo" 55-250.

The truth - It isn't perfect.

Yet it took me quite a while to make peace with it.

So... what would YOU do when someone challenges your belief?

Deny... find excuses... fight back... but someday you'd have to face the truth. Acceptance. Making peace with the truth that your belief may not be the truth.. or the only truth possible. Most importantly, making peace with yourself. Taking a step back, reanalyse everything objectively, and then figuring out what's right from wrong...

No one ever points out the good in that. Truth is, by doubting our beliefs, it allows us to put our foundations to the test, to patch up what may be imperfect, to understand everything again, and it allows us to strengthen our core.

Sure, I don't want to believe that I wasted money on an expensive lens. But the thing is, it is still great! I just have to learn about its flaws, and make better judgment when bringing them out for shoots in the future.

And that just makes me a better photographer in turn, isn't it? :)